Broken

Give me the broken, those in pain.
The wise, made wise by suffering.
Who can know compassion,
Who can know Love,
Who hasn’t hurt, felt anguish,
Known sorrow, and known loss?
Precious is the fellowship of suffering
Humble are those who are broken
And Sweet is the consolation of His Love. 

Tonyia

my little girl,
i loved you so much.
i had such hopes,
sweet dreams of holding you,
playing with you,
watching you grow.

i felt you grow inside.
God had taken part of me,
and fashioned something precious,
something lovely,
exquisitely beautiful,
embodied of hope and love

but i lost you.

you were my little girl,
not to hold, never to see
unable to watch you stretch
your arms for the first time,
never to see you experience
this wide wide world.

you were taken too early,
a life, my life,
so short, so tenuous.
my stolen child,
my heart broke for loss.
when you were taken,
part of me was taken too.


This poem was written for my Aunt Barbara, who lost her first little girl (Tonyia) two days after she was born.  

Indescribable

I desire to express an invocation
an elocution most profound
But my words escape me
The ephemeral nature of my heart
cannot grasp the discarnate theme
ethereal, mystical, divine

Cry out, Cry out, inarticulate tongue
insensate instrument of mans desiring
Let the heart give forth praise
indescribable
 

Why Stand Ye Desolate

Why stand ye desolate,
Forsaken, full of sorrow?
Why cry ye as the foundations are laid?
Yet now be strong, be strong
For I AM with you
I have promised
My Spirit yet remaineth

Heed My word, wait.
I will shake heaven
I will shake earth
Sea and dry land
I will fill this temple
Its glory, My glory
Will surpass what came before.

(Haggai 2:1-9

The Depth of Mercy and the Breadth

How does one express,
the depth of mercy and the breadth
and width of His great love?

For I have descended
to such great heights
of proud and selfish gain.
And the weight of sin is
a dark and lonely pain.

Yet Christ above
on God’s right hand
intercedes for me…

Oh, unexplainable grace,
death on Calvary.
mine is an undeserved and wasted life
and yet I am redeemed. 

Love Suffers Love, and Endless Hoping

day suffers day, and emptiness
a pervasive feeling in the back of the soul
and frustration, crying out, but not completely,
to proud to let go of ruined things familiar

self suffers self, and resignation
a comfortable pain that is perversely loved
defying logic to pour energy into an object long dead
to vain to give up hopes of a selfish triumph

love suffers love, and endless hoping
a faithful prompting in the depths of the heart
telling you to let go of sins long held private
to kind to cease from calling you home 

Prone

Prone to doubting, Father of power
I lack the faith to trust Thy word
To take the step that means redemption
Accepting love, You as my Lord

Prone to fearing, Father almighty
I lack the courage I need today
To live the life Your love demands me
Love expressing, Thy will, Thy way

Prone to stumbling, Father of mercy
I lack humility to take your love
To accept forgiveness, all my sinning
Thy love astounding, covering all